Happy Anniversary
Happy Anniversary he would say with a smile
My gut would fill with dread as he handed me my present
I would fake excitement as I opened it up
“I bought them online at one of those novelty stores”
He would say as I stared at the brightly colored silicon
Later, after the sun had gone down
He would lay out my presents like a torturer’s tool kit
One by one he would try them all out
As I lay there pretending I enjoyed my gift
Artfully masking winces of pain with moans of pleasure
Not daring to give hint that I didn’t enjoy it
As he spent hours playing with his new toys
But he really didn’t care if I liked it or not
Since screams of “stop that hurts!” would be ignored
Or answered with “I saw it in a video, that girl liked it!”
Rising from the Ashes Poetry 
Wow, you were brave to write that. It’s powerfu!
Thank you. Yes, it took a lot of courage to post, but I had to write it and this blog is for other women who need to know they are not alone. I have wanted to delete it off of here several times since putting it up. Thank you for liking and commenting, now I am less likely to do that.
Please don’t delete. I know that there are others out there that can identify with this, I know I could. It wasn’t for an anniversary, but just because he wanted it and tried to convince me over the years that I liked it too. I pretended to because I was afraid. I am no longer under his control and can’t wait for the divorce to be finalized in a couple weeks.
Thank you Forgiven. I will not delete it for sure now! I am glad you were helped by it. No, we are not alone!
I can relate to that and i have a friend who can too. I left two years ago. We were supposed to marry 3 yrs ago today. I dodged a freight train.