Happy Anniversary

Happy Anniversary

 

Happy Anniversary he would say with a smile

My gut would fill with dread as he handed me my present

 I would fake excitement as I opened it up

“I bought them online at one of those novelty stores”

He would say as I stared at the brightly colored silicon

 

Later, after the sun had gone down

He would lay out my presents like a torturer’s tool kit

One by one he would try them all out

As I lay there pretending I enjoyed my gift

Artfully masking winces of pain with moans of pleasure

 

Not daring to give hint that I didn’t enjoy it

As he spent hours playing with his new toys

But he really didn’t care if I liked it or not

Since screams of “stop that hurts!” would be ignored

Or answered with “I saw it in a video, that girl liked it!”

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About RisingFromTheAshesPoetry

I am a survivor of domestic violence and I write poetry: Wisdom once said put your life into verse Or your pain and suffering will only get worse He said put your thoughts into rhyme And the healing you seek will come in time
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5 Responses to Happy Anniversary

  1. Wow, you were brave to write that. It’s powerfu!

    • Thank you. Yes, it took a lot of courage to post, but I had to write it and this blog is for other women who need to know they are not alone. I have wanted to delete it off of here several times since putting it up. Thank you for liking and commenting, now I am less likely to do that.

  2. Forgivenbytheblood says:

    Please don’t delete. I know that there are others out there that can identify with this, I know I could. It wasn’t for an anniversary, but just because he wanted it and tried to convince me over the years that I liked it too. I pretended to because I was afraid. I am no longer under his control and can’t wait for the divorce to be finalized in a couple weeks.

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